“Could you apply that theory to
decisions about stuff other than money?” I asked The Accountant.
“Of course!” Was his
passionate response. “All Opportunity Cost means is the next best alternative
foregone.”
I stared at him blankly.
“So, you could apply it to
something like deciding whether or not to have kids?”
“Sure, what is the next best
alternative to having kids?”
“Well, I guess focusing on
your career, or travelling.”
“So there you go. You would
say that your career or the ability to travel are opportunity costs to having
kids.”
While I could see his point, I
feel like economic principals don’t make the best decision making tools when it
comes to more complex decisions. When I think about the fact that I am very
close to becoming a mother of two, my career and not being able to go to Fiji
for a week for my birthday are the least of my worries.
The truth is, when it comes to
having children there are many, many, many, “alternatives foregone.”
Like sleep. Precious precious
sleep. We got so lucky with Conrad, who slept through the night at six months.
What if this one is a non-sleeper who won’t sleep through the night until age
two? There are few things more terrifying than staring down the barrel of two
years without a full night’s sleep, even if it is a hypothetical, worst case
scenario barrel.
Another important “alternative
foregone” is the ability to easily leave the house. There are now two car seats
in the back of my car. When The Accountant finished installing the baby capsule
I looked in the back seat passenger window and felt like bursting into tears.
The logistics of getting anything done with two small children suddenly hit me
like a tonne of bricks and seemed completely overwhelming.
I could go on and on listing
the things you forgo in order to bring new life into this world. A social life,
a disposable income, a sex life. In my case, it’s looking like I’m going two
for two on the major surgery thing, so the small amount of core strength I had
left will also be out the window.
And yet, despite all these
things, I feel like I’m going in to this new-born season with an advantage I
didn’t have before.
The Accountant and I were
never absolutely dead set on having children. We wanted them, sure. But we
agreed that if for some reason it didn’t work out we wouldn’t do the whole IVF
or adoption thing, we would focus on our careers and travel the world and that
would be just fine with us. We both thought that these things would bring us
just as much happiness as having children would.
I now know that’s not true.
I have been very lucky in that
even though I was only 24 when Conrad came along, I had done a fair amount of
travelling and been given some awesome opportunities with my career.
I loved seeing the Eifel Tour
and Big Ben and going on a cruise ship that made me feel like I was on the
Titanic.
I love talking student nurses
through giving their first injection. I love being there when a stroke patient
walks again for the first time.
But I love Conrad more. So
much more. So much that I have yet to find words to describe it.
I didn’t feel that way at
first. Not at all. I was recovering from surgery and he was so unwell that for
the first 6-8 weeks of his life I honestly thought we had made the wrong
decision. Having kids was the alternative that we should have foregone.
But I get it now. I get why
people sacrifice so much to have children, and then do it again and again and
again. Because, for me, there is no remote destination I could travel to or job
title I could have next to my name that could ever compare to the joy and
privilege it is to be a mum.
I know this now. And this
knowledge will be what gets me through the sleep deprivation and the lack of
social life and the logistical nightmare that is two children under two.
I hope.
Please pray for us, we’re
going to need it.
Having two is going to be so much easier than you are expecting. Don't listen to the horror stories. Honestly the adjustment to two is fareasier than the adjustment to one. I panicked pre having my second also but now five months in and it truly is far far better than I could have imagined. All the best.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for the encouragement Leigh! It means alot :-)
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