Starting
a family is the most wonderful time of your life! He’s obviously not fit to be
a parent if he’s comparing it to a horror movie. When I have children I am
going to cherish every single second. EVERY. SINGLE. SECOND.
Yep, pre kid me was an idiot.
Now, in my post children totes
woke state, I realise that becoming a parent is exactly the same as a horror
movie. Allow me to demonstrate…
The
beginning – a questionable decision is made.
Horror
movies: We can just dump the body of this random pedestrian we
hit in the water no one will ever know…
Parenting: Let’s
start trying for a baby!
Early
warning signs this may have been a bad call…
Horror
movies: Your child develops a creepy imaginary friend named Jodie
and the magnetic letters on the fridge start spelling Katch ‘em & kill ‘em.
Parenting: You
spend all day everyday throwing up. You get constipated. You are constantly
exhausted. You no longer have ankles. You have to pee every 15 minutes. You get
out of the shower and see the outline of a human foot coming from the inside of
your body. You are woken at 3am every morning by your child trying to break all
of your ribs.
Loud
alarm bells, you realise you are in serious trouble…
Horror
movies: The baby powder you sprinkled on the floor shows non-human
footprints leading up into your attic.
Parenting: I
guess for most mums this moment would come as you go into labour. For me, the
realisation we may have made a huge mistake came when what felt like the 50th
doctor was called to examine my vagina and again confirm that yes despite
having every labour inducing medication known to man my cervix was refusing to
open for business.
The
tipping point…..
Horror
movies: Blood, screaming, crying, yelling, attempts to run away.
Here’s Johnny.
Parenting:
Blood, screaming, crying, yelling, attempts to run away. Here’s your baby.
The
denouement….
I’ll be honest, a lot of
horror movies end with everyone dying, but not all of them do. Some just kill
off all the annoying obnoxious characters and the good ones survive and come
through it all stronger than before. This is how it is with becoming a parent.
The process of having my boys has killed off/significantly dulled the parts of
my personality that I really didn’t like so much. The judgemental, ungrateful,
indifferent, selfish parts have been replaced with tolerance, thankfulness,
empathy, and compassion.
Before I had Conrad I used to
binge watch One Born Every Minute in an attempt to mentally prepare myself for
child birth (waste of time, would not recommend). I remember one episode
featured a Mormon couple who shared their belief that everyone should have as
many children as possible because there are all these little souls floating around
in the cosmos somewhere just waiting for a body to inhabit, and God sends the
right little soul to the family that needs them. Our littlest boy Eric turned
one last month. Those of you who are long time followers will know that our
first few months with him were horrendous, if I’m honest, I found him very difficult
to love. I would sometimes think of that couple, and I would think to myself
why did God send us this one, why couldn’t we have another dream baby like
Conrad.
Now, months later, I realise
Eric is perfect. Yes he is stubborn and over dramatic and tears through our
house like a hurricane, but he brings out the best in his captain cautious big
brother, and he brings out the best in me.
Darling Eric, you are a
typical second child in that there was no blog dedicated to your birth story or
the meaning of your name, but I hope you know how thankful I am that God considered
me worthy to be your mum. You continue to teach me so much, and I love you more
than words could ever say.
And remember dear readers,
sometimes scary stories are just love stories without the filter on.
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